Do you know what my chopping block's for?

antinostalgia @ 2009-12-09T17:41:00

2009-12-09T22:41:22Z

This turned into a mistake in so many unexpected ways.

antinostalgia @ 2009-10-16T03:43:00

2009-10-16T07:44:30Z

It makes you ache.

For everyone else.

All at once.

antinostalgia @ 2009-10-12T22:49:00

2009-10-13T02:50:18Z

I'm that girl in the back of the class who eats her hair

antinostalgia @ 2009-10-10T14:31:00

2009-10-10T18:31:22Z

I know I don't have any experience in this area.

But I'm pretty sure this is not how it is supposed to be.
It isn't supposed to get harder until later on? Right?

Fuck

Family

2009-10-08T07:52:13Z

There is no other species that stays together and "cares" for each other altruistically.

We are doing this wrong.

antinostalgia @ 2009-09-28T00:11:00

2009-09-28T04:11:31Z

gahhhpeopleeeeeee

antinostalgia @ 2009-09-03T16:37:00

2009-09-03T14:39:18Z

I get this feeling every year.

The weather cools and the sun hangs a little less. I feel nomadic.

I taste dead leaves and apples in my mouth. It is the best of the best.

antinostalgia @ 2009-08-18T02:20:00

2009-08-18T00:21:26Z

Alright, Coates. Time to get over it.

Like anything would have worked out. Please.

Hah.

Inspirational.

antinostalgia @ 2009-06-26T05:13:00

2009-06-26T03:13:44Z

What am I supposed to say to who? Really.
Is it a problem I should just deal with, or just how life is and will continue being?

complexxx

antinostalgia @ 2009-04-28T00:15:00

2009-04-27T22:21:15Z

TDC was amazing. My work looks like it will be getting done without copious amounts of stressing. ANDDDD!

Sia is coming to Copenhagen on Sunday.

'nuff said.

antinostalgia @ 2009-03-08T20:13:00

2009-03-08T19:13:49Z

woah now

antinostalgia @ 2009-01-19T15:27:00

2009-01-19T20:46:32Z

Okay. So let's get legit here.
Tonight the three of us from RPI made cheeseburgers. Oh my god. It pretty much rocked me inside and out. It was the most protein I've consumed since I got here. There was a Lithuanian guy who had a burger with us, too. He was amazed; he eats his 'meatballs' with potatoes. He also could not believe the size of a burger, and it kind of made me feel like a fat American. But that's okay. I was really hungry.
The other RPI students are coming this Friday-Monday. I'm kind of nervous. The two students already here that I hang out with a lot know some of the ones that are coming, but I don't. I just hope I don't end up by myself. That would be sad. The orientation is next week as well. Nervous! I think I'm going to try and take the ferry to Sweden on Wednesday. Not sure if it will actually happen, but I'm going to make an effort. Traveling by yourself is scary. Maybe doing it by myself will give me more confidence in myself. Or maybe I'll have a panic attack and fall over-board. Either way.
I just need to think of things to do for this up-coming week. Make sure I go out and see as much as possible before everyone else gets here. With the orientation taking up a good chunk of next week and it being questionable whether I'll see the people I've met here once others get here. It's time to roll out. I just am not sure where. Hah. You can make the plan, but.

Can't wait for classes to start.

antinostalgia @ 2009-01-16T10:13:00

2009-01-16T15:13:01Z

I think I'm melting

antinostalgia @ 2009-01-14T10:01:00

2009-01-14T15:02:55Z

I think I found hygge.

I wish I didn't have to give it up.

I want it back.

You can change location, but not trait

2009-01-04T11:40:16Z

Holy holy crap. It's cold in Denmark. And even with the impending doom of class tomorrow at 9 am, I can't seem to get myself to open this book and start studying.

Ohhh nelly.

antinostalgia @ 2008-12-27T12:58:00

2008-12-27T17:58:29Z

Peace out America!

Hello, Denmark!

antinostalgia @ 2008-09-05T01:53:00

2008-09-05T05:53:23Z

AAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

antinostalgia @ 2008-08-27T23:36:00

2008-08-28T03:36:59Z

T-minus stressed!

antinostalgia @ 2008-07-13T20:15:00

2008-07-14T00:15:24Z

AAAGHHHHH FUUUUUUUUUUUUCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK

antinostalgia @ 2008-07-07T01:23:00

2008-07-07T05:27:45Z

A new level of narcissism I have achieved. Or, at least, am attempting.

Where is lyfe going? For serious.
My job has given be a whole lot of nothing so far except prospects that are never fulfilled.
The only thing I'm really looking forward to is the possibility of going to Denmark next spring. Even that is still wishy-washy and hard to pin down and my excitement is matched by the paranoia of letting know and figuring logistics.

Fuh-fuh-fuh-fuck.

hah.

2008-05-28T14:36:24Z

and everything was going so well

da fuuuuuuuuuuk?

2008-05-22T05:28:24Z

Why the hell do I go to an engineering college?

For serious.

down on my knees

2008-05-21T21:56:16Z

So many transitionssss
I suppose that's life, so I should learn to adapt.

Evolve-o-lution.

I'm almost completely out of my old apartment now and into the new one. It doesn't quite feel like home yet. I still get confused when I wake up in the middle of the night and I need to pee. Gotta work through it. At least the microwave is finally here.

It's really difficult to have so many friends no longer around me. You don't realize how close you become with them until they're all sorts of gone. Even less do you realize how much you change until your back around friends from home you've had forever and suddenly it doesn't even feel the same. Not that is becomes worse. Just different. You are so used to having some people know you inside and out and vice versa, but that isn't the case any longer.

More transitions.

As for work this summer, I'm excited. Real excited. A visiting post-doc is here from India who works with patterning gold surfaces. Which I will need. Which means I will have my project pushed fast-forward in terms of progress. I'll have results. I'm legitimately excited.

This is going to either be a relaxed summer, or there are some epic things that are going to go down.

Secretly I'm hoping the shit goes down.

hee

oh honey, is it all about money?

2008-05-09T15:36:32Z

another semester and the GPA gets to float just above 3.0

grab the life preservers.

antinostalgia @ 2008-05-05T08:43:00

2008-05-05T12:44:17Z

heroin chic?

i mean, come ooooon